Thursday, June 30, 2016

Stress + Too Much Work + Anxiety = Overloaded System

husband and wife, wife suffers from dysautonomia
This is what overworked looks like.
You guys, I'm sitting here at work having a mini-panic attack. Maybe "mini" is the wrong word to use. Maybe "silent" is the right word. I'm really quiet right now. I don't feel like myself. I feel very off. Something feels very wrong. Very very wrong. My stomach feels queasy. I feel very nauseated. My heart is beating rapidly. I'm thirsty but the thought of drinking water makes me want to vomit. Food? Don't even go there. I've taken my temperature twice. It's elevated but that's from the stress.


Welcome to having dysautonomia.

So, what's been going on this week?

I'm working too much. My dog had worms (gross, I know). We have preschool stress. Potty training stress (our 4.5 year old is having a hard time potty training because preschool isn't being consistent...read between the lines). I seriously have too much work on my plate, right now. Writing this blog post is my half-assed attempt at calming myself down.

And I'm exhausted. I'm not sleeping well. But it's more than being tired, it's actual exhaustion.

If you were to look at me right now, you'd think maybe I had too much coffee, or maybe I had a secret. My eyes are really wide - I can feel it. I don't quite feel like the sky is falling, which is good, but I feel like I have so much on my plate that I don't know where to start

I need a vacation. But who has time?? I don't have a backup at work! So this is the worst time to go on vacation. But I need a vacation where I just nap. A lot.

Say a little prayer for me, will ya?

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